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Everything · For · You
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And I don't know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wondering when the call comes
Where you say it's alright
You got your heart right
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
All you need is love is a lie cause
We had love but we still said goodbye
Now we're tired, battered fighters
And it stings when it's nobody's fault
Cause there's nothing to blame at the drop of your name
It's only the air you took and the breath you left
Maybe I'll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can't find a flight
So I'll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right
I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don't hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me 'til your dying day
Don't let me get away
Cause I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say this is the way that I used to be
There's no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
Split screen sadness
We share the sadness |
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Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you Suppose I said
You're my saving grace? Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else? |
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Lovely. J'aime, ti amo.... c'est presque fini. tonight will be fun, im hoping so at least..... and for once no drinking...perhaps, and no repeats :) ...pizza! |
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When everything is lonely you can be your own best friend
You'll get a coffee and the paper, have your own conversations
with the sidewalk and the pigeons and your window reflection
The mask you polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit
And you know I have a heavy heart, you can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than you have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But you you're not a gamble, I can count on you to split
The love you sell me in the evening by the morning won't exist
I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane
And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is
It was so simple in the moonlight now it's so complicated...
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You can dance every dance with the guy Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight You can smile every smile for the man Who held your hand neath the pale moon light Oh I know that the music is fine
Like sparkling wine, so go and have your fun
Laugh and sing, but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much You can dance, go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he take you home, you must tell him no 'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me. |
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You can play the game and you can act out the part,
even though you know it wasn't written for you.
Tell me, how can you stand there with your broken heart ashamed of playing the fool?
One thing can lead to another; it doesn't take any sacrifice.
Oh, father and mother, sister and brother, if it feels nice, don't think twice,
just shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel.
Things are gonna work out fine if you only will do as I say, just
shower the people you love with love, show them the way you feel.
Things are gonna be much better if you only will.
You can run but you cannot hide, this is widely known.
Tell me, what you plan to do with your foolish pride when you're all by yourself, alone.
Once you tell somebody the way that you feel, you can feel it beginning to ease.
I think it's true what they say about the squeaky wheel always getting the grease.
Better to shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel.
Things are gonna be just fine if you only will what I’d like to do to you.
Shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel.
Things are gonna be much better if you only will.
Shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel.
You'll feel better right away.
Don't take much to do, sell you pride.
They say in every life, they say the rain must fall, just like pouring rain, make it rain.
Make it rain, love, love, love is sunshine, oh yes,
Make it rain, love, love, love is sunshine. Everybody, everybody.
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I've been waiting i've been waiting for this moment all my life but it's not quite right and this 'real'
it's impossible if possible
at who's blind word
so clear but so unheard i've been waiting
i've been waiting for this silence all night long
it's just a matter of time to appear sad
with the same 'ol decent lazy eye
fixed to rest on you
aim free and so untrue everyone's so intimately rearranged
everyone can focus clearly with such shine lost and loaded
still the same 'ol decent lazy eye
straight through your gaze
that's why i said i relate
i said we relate
it's so fun to relate it's the room the sun and the sky
it's the room the sun and the sky i've been waiting
i've been waiting for this moment... |
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I dive in at the deep end
You become my best friend
I wanna love you but I don't know if I can
I know something is broken
and I'm trying to fix it
Trying to repair it anyway I can |
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I know you've given all that you could give to me i know there will come a day I'll understand until then i'll be trying to solve your mystery and wonder why i couldnt make you stay smiling through denial, my specialty
i thought that was a good thing for a while
you gave me all your secrets, were you testing me? how could i do anything but smile
reinact your legendary tragedy
and do to me what has been done to you is that the only point to all this misery?
is ther any reason i should cry? heal, it takes time and you gave me all you had
i know in time i will believe that i loved you
did you love me?
did you love me? heal, it takes time and you gave me all you had
i know in time i will believe that i loved you
did you love me?
you loved me |
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Jolene, I'm begging of you please don't take my man. Jolene, Please don't take him just because you can. Your beauty is beyond compare, with flaming locks of auburn hair, with ivory skin and eyes of emerald green. Your smile is like a breath of spring, your voice is soft like summer rain, and I cannot compete with you, Jolene. He talks about you in his sleep. There's nothing I can do to keep from crying when he calls your name, Jolene. And I can easily understand, how you could easily take my man but you don't know what he means to me, Jolene. You could have your choice of men, but I could never love again he's the only one for me, Jolene. I had to have this talk with you, my happiness depends on you and whatever you decide to do, Jolene. Im begging of you please dont take my man. Please dont take him even though you can.
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Say goodnight and go
Skipping beats, flashing jeeps
I am struggling
Daydreaming, been sitting, the corner cafe
And I'm left in bits, recovered tectonic, trembling
You get me everytime
Why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
Follow you home
You've got your headphones on
And your dancing
Got lucky, beautiful shot
You're taking everything off
Watch the curtains, wide open
And you fall in the same routine
Flicking through the TV
Relaxed and reclining
And you think you're alone
Oh why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
One of these days
You'll miss your train, and come stay with me
It's always say goodnight and go
We'll have drinks and talk about things
And any excuse to stay awake with you
You'd sleep here, I'd sleep there
But then the heating may be down again
At my convenience
We'd be good, we'd be great together
Go
Why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
Why is it always, always
Goodnight and Go |
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With her hair blowing in the wind, she suddenly realized she was awake. She brushed the strand of hair that woke her from her face where it had hit her. As she put her cold fingers to her cheek though, she realized that she didn't know where she was. Panicked, she sat up and looked from side to side. She recognized everything, but not in the right way. The world she had apparently fallen asleep in was not the one in which she had awoken. Faces passed her that she recognized, but she couldn't bring herself to smile, or even acknowledge them at all. She got up and walked alongside them. The faces. It hurt. |
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She says it all without a thought in her head
She says it all as she's pressed up against him
A little something just to take off the edge
A little more and she'll fall off the planet entirely |
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Now I'm thinking maybe, I was stoned. I felt my feet lift off the ground. And my heart was screaming, and my bones... "I need you closer..."
As he’s in the middle of the street... Then, I pretend he’s mine to keep. Cars are running fast on both sides of his head. His eyes say, "Closer. Closer... Closer..."
I met him when the sun was down, the bar was closed; we both have had no sleep. My face beneath the streetlamp, it reveals what it is lonely people seek... "Closer, closer, closer."
And you’re close enough to lose.
Close to the point, where you know... that your mind, it can not choose.
Close enough to lose.
Close enough
to lose your
heart. |
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Basically, I need to let a few things go. Things since the summer, since before that, since ever. Letting things just leave never to grace my thoughts ever again. but, I cant. Cause that’s too dramatic. Overwrought and fucked up and who the hell cares anyways. I look at myself in the mirror some days, and I just think to myself... "what the hell happened to you." I listen to some of the things that come out of my mouth and I ask "who the fuck are you." yeah I’ve changed, yeah it scares me. Do I want to go back? Maybe I never used to say the things I do now, nor would I have ever thought them. And its scary
my ideals and beliefs thrown out the window, I look at this girl and wonder where Rachel went. The one I remembered, the one I polished and got just right. justtttt right. like Goldie locks. Perfect. But she was weak, and she just let things wash over her, taking the pain. Over and over and over. There i go again with this dramatic bullshit. Someone hurt me. I’ve changed. Point made. Not necessarily a bad thing, not necessarily a good one either.
I do find I’m getting a lot more done though. Although it’s all crap. Nothing I’m proud of anymore. But hey- results are results... who can argue with that even if you disappoint yourself so incredibly thoughrally . Fuck, I’m really interested to see where this new approach will take me. do the ends justify the means? Do they? Of course I don’t. This is wrong. I know it. I don’t care though. What the fuck happened.
I want passion again. I want to wake up in the morning. I want to want to wake up. I want to feel that.... you know, that connection. Connection... is that the right word? I honestly couldn’t tell you.
So back to letting my shit go. Major confessional. I really wanted us to work. I really did. Krissy's right though. Surprising as it is. He only did bad things for me. That one week nearly did me in. look down, look up. In the reflection. Disgust. Fuck. I can’t believe I did that. I really cant, and to think, I’d do it all again in a second to get him back. Why? Who knows... did I ever really like him? I think so... why else? Maybe he was just an outlet. For the girl I wish I was. The carefree one, the caring one, the pretty one.... the one like her. The confidence. The allure. So I failed. I just want to try again...
not to mention the other. Who refuses to give me back what is mine. Fucker. as much as I hate him, every time I’m with /her/ I wish I was she. His her. Does that make sense? Sure it does. Better. Do I still want to be her though, going through hell for the boy she loves? Fucking teen angst is so sappy and humiliating. That’s what all of this is .... Angst.... a.n.g.s.t. Fucking loving it.
You know when I was little I used to sit by myself often. Just thinking. Making theories to try and explain my loneliness. Maybe that’s my theme. That’s right I’m a novel. A piece of work. ahaha... pun. Art? Yeah, okay. I always thought I was different. Like one day I’d just do something. Anything. Special, you know? And then my name would be written down in a book somewhere. Or on a wall. or outside. Or scribbled somewhere. Then that feeling turned into something I really don’t think I have words for. Like. I wished my entire life centered around one motion. okay maybe not motion. Emotion? no definitely not. Okay let me describe it. Sitting with your knees folded under, wearing the most beautiful of romantic satin gowns. One shoe on the other fallen off. A mess. Hands at the heart. and this feeling of having everything inside just wretched out of your body. Gasping for air. hair perfect. Pouted mouth. "Love me" written all over. yeah so that’s what goes through my head every time I think about my being. Am I acting like that woman? Am I her? I want to be.
"I so desperately want to be" |
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The Space Between, The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between, The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me. Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking... These twisted games we're playing
We're strange allies.
With warring hearts.
What wild-eyed beast you be.
The Space Between
...The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain
Will I hold you again?
Look at us spinning out in the madness of a roller coaster
You know I went off like a devil In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love is hope we don't take this ship down
The Space Between
Where you're smiling high Is where you'll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand.
'Cause we're walking out of here Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here.
The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...
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O' for a good life, we just might have to weaken
and find somewhere to go |
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Escape is my only outlet. |
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Last night I dreamed, last night I dreamed darkly nurtured dreams. None of them were quite as frightening... Emptied, there was me, featureless and freezing .
Last night I dreamed ...you didn’t love me. you kissed my fingers and made me love you Last night you left me derelict and disappeared for ages
You just said ‘honey save those tears of yours for the show'
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What’s happening to you?
Why don’t you love me like you used to? Awake empty and out of sleep, you were beside me gently breathing
Last night I dreamed you didn’t love me. Why don’t you love me like you used to? ...When you kissed my fingers and you made me love you<td width="10"> </td> |
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